Magic numbers

30 breakfasts. 12 visits to the supermarket. 75 hours of lessons. One visit to the doctor; three to the pharmacy. 26 hours on the Underground. 6 London Bridge crossings. One stroll through the TATE. 62 cups of tea; two of them broken. One book and two magazines read. 23 awkward silences in the lift. 4 Sundays in pyjamas. Two Saturdays in Soho; one in Brixton and one in Camden. 3 bills paid. 7 new friends on Facebook. £27,48 spent in TopShop. 0 flight booked. 8 lads trying to hit on you. 8 disappointed men. 1.944.000 heartbeats. 4 muffins at Costa Coffee. 107 miles with National Express. 59 sighs, 26 of them, over your life. 4 hours starring into space before the Tames. 9 hours listening to The Velvet Underground. 210 hours in bed; 90 sleeping; 43 having nightmares. 30 days and 30 nights to notice that I wasn’t around anymore.